When we first found out about A last year he was 2 years and 3 months old. I went out very soon after that and bought him a sweet shirt that I would save in the closet for him when he arrived home. It was from Gap and part of their RED line and it said “INCREDIBLE. I love it so much!

After visiting him in May and just recently two weeks ago I realized that I need to let it go. It will not fit him when he gets home. He is already too big for it and by the time he gets home it will not look right on him.

The shirt fits D great and in fact is a bit big. I have not let him wear it yet because it is A’s shirt. One day Aaron dressed them and D came out in that shirt and I made him change. I was holding on to that shirt for my boy A in Haiti. It was his shirt. I bought it for HIM and no one else.

Today D came out dressed and he had THE shirt on. For a second I wanted him to change, but then I stopped and smiled because it looked good on him and it wouldn’t be right to hold on to it for A since it won’t fit him.

Today I let go of one more thing that A will not be here for. Birthdays pass, holidays pass and shirt sizes pass too during adoptions. I’m learning to let go.

Forgive the blue lips they are the result of the bank teller and in fact they resulted in a quite peaceful trip to Wal-Mart for mom today! Thanks bank teller!

Forgive the pained look on his face …. he needed to potty and I made him stop to take a picture!

Much better!

I will forever think of my sweet boy in Haiti when I see this shirt!

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