I have officially been back at home as a full time mom for two months now. The questions are not as often now, but at first everyone wanted to know how I was doing. Did I miss work. Was I glad to be back with my kids. Did I think I made the right decision.
Just the other day Story and I were out running errands and I had a moment. No one knew I was having this moment, but as Story and I walked down the sidewalk to the next store holding hands and chatting I smiled and was beyond thankful for the decision that I made a few months ago. The decision to leave work to go back home might be one of the top five decisions I’ve ever made in my entire life. Me being home with Story full time has transformed this little girl. If you are close in our lives you know that this summer was a hard summer. Quite possibly the hardest time in our marriage that we have had in 10 years. It was also a very hard time for Story. She is a very strong willed child and this summer it was as if she was saying “screw you” every time she looked at me. You put together Aaron and I struggling in our marriage, Story acting out every single minute of the day, me working outside the home, Aaron traveling 5 weeks and it was the perfect storm for a HARD summer.
During September and October we have sat back and watched Story change right before our eyes. It was early October that Aaron and I had a come-to-Jesus meeting about our parenting. We felt as though we were being too hard on Story and could ease up some. We have literally seen Story change from a very disobedient 3 year old to a 3 year old that obeys (90% of the time at least!) and has a sweet heart when doing it. We have seen her attitude towards us change from disrespect to respect.
Being home with Story is something that has changed my heart as well. I have grown even more in love with this girl than I was before. There were many days this summer that I did not like her. Oh I loved her to death. I have and will always love my sweet little girl, but it was hard for me to like her for she was such a hard little girl that seemed to just want to disobey. Now she’s so different that I call her my little JOY. She brings so much joy, love and laughter to my life each day.
I have about 21 months left where I get to spend every single morning with this little girl and I don’t want to miss a moment of this. She is precious and I love that we get time where “the brothers”, as she likes to call them, aren’t around. It’s just mommy and Story time!
So, if you’ve been wondering about my decision here’s your answer. YES I made the right choice. YES I love being home full time. YES I would love to be back in radio some day!
Right after I quit Houston Baptist University interviewed me and that article was just out in their latest newsletter. Click HERE to see it. You’ll need to click where it says Volume 48 and it will upload the digital newsletter. I’m on page 37.