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What do I hold on to the most in my life in complete and utter fear of giving it over to God? What do you hold on to? Jennie Allen recently released a book called ANYTHING and in it she shares how one simple prayer changed her life and how it can change ours as well. One night on the floor of her bathroom she prayed this prayer …. “From this point on things are changing. I am living for the moment when I will face you. I want to get to heaven out of breath, having willingly done anything that you – God of the universe – asks … anything.”
I read this book and felt short of breath through most of it. I felt what Jennie was saying, and I was enamored with her dance with Jesus through this subject of abandoning it all. She writes about her fears, what was holding her back, what she was scared of letting go, and she writes about the joy that this prayer brought and the feelings of wanting to abandon it all for the costs. I was right there with her. I want that too.
Jennie has been asking people what is their “anything”. What is the one thing that’s holding you back. I tried to think of my “anything”, and friends I’m embarrassed to say my “anything” is not just one thing, it’s lots of “anythings”. I feel as though sometimes I try so hard to control my life and hold on to everything I can grasp around me full of fear of what might happen if I let it go. It’s as if I’m an octopus and I’m desperately trying to use all my arms to hold everything I love and desire close to me, so that God can’t touch it, because I fear so much that God just might ask me to suffer for the things I truly love. I fear that he just might take me down a path that few people travel in this world.
I hold my kids tight for the fear of losing one of them to sickness or an accident. I hold my husband and marriage so tightly to try and persuade God to let me keep Aaron until I’m old, and we hold hands in bed one night and drift off to meet our Savior together. I keep a tight hold on my thoughts, because what if I really shared what I think with someone and God asked me to deal with that un-forgiveness or bitterness. Isn’t it better if I keep it tight in my heart?
My anything might just be fear.
Jennie tackles this in chapter six, and I resonated with her words in so many ways. She says this,
“What if he lets me suffer? What if he asks me to sacrifice. What if none of my dreams come true? The very thought of doing anything demands everything. We have to face our fears. If we believe he is real, if we believe he has an eternal heart, we have to face the fact that a God like that may mess with our temporary comfort and fictional scrapbook.”
Oh dear Lord you are ripping away my heart all over again. I’m praying again for God to use my WHOLE life as he pleases. That includes these precious babies he has given me and my fabulous husband. God you are in charge.
I want to constantly remind myself of 2 Corinthians 4:17 which says, “For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison.” Whatever might come upon me that seems difficult or bad in my eyes is momentary and God is using it to prepare me for glory. When I read that I want to say “YES I AM IN! ANYTHING!!!”
What is your anything? What are you holding on to so tightly that God is asking, begging, demanding you let go of? Friend I want you and I to let it go. To say to God, I will do anything. Anything. What if we let it go? What could God do?
That video trailer brings me to tears EVERY SINGLE TIME that I watch it. Maybe because I know some of the people in it and I know their stories, or just maybe because I too want to lay it all down and know that God’s working ALL things in my life for his good, not just what I think is good. Who am I to know what is good and what is bad, when it’s all for his glory. I want to trust 100% in that statement and not hold on to what I think I have control of, because in doing that I just might miss some joy that God wants to bestow upon me. I want to give him ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING.
I would love for you to have a copy of Jennie’s book ANYTHING. To win one, please do one or two or three of these things. If you do more than one, leave a separate comment for each one and you get more entries.
1. Tell me your anything. What is the one thing that’s holding you back.
2. Head on over to Jennie’s facebook page and like her. Feel free to leave her a comment if you would like.
3. Visit the WHAT IS YOUR ANYTHING webpage. Read a view stories and possibly submit your own.
and if you want … tell your friends. Share on facebook and/or twitter.
Contest will end on Wed at midnight (CST) and winner will be announced on Thursday, May 10th. You must live in the US to be eligible.
CONGRATS TO ASHLEY, GINGER & JACKIE you each won a book!
Here are your random numbers:
10 25 8
Timestamp: 2012-05-10 14:32:09 UTC